Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you.
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming.

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright,
You don't know what it's like
To be like me.

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark,
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around,
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you,
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life...
Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan

Something I had to get out. Ended up putting more effort into it than planned and I actually like it so leaving comments on xD at least this hopefully means I'm having a good drawing day ^^ (working on the birthday drawing now Hazel, the sketch and lineart somehow took houuurs so I needed a wee break from it xD)

I think I feel a bit better now, I feel weird. I wish I knew what this feeling was ;-; it's kinda like tiredness but also not? Maybe a touch of loneliness? And omg I'm the clingiest piece of shit someone cuddle me xDD double beds are cold and lonely and I mean that in the least sexual way possible I swear

Honestly I just wish I was 'normal'
I wish I could stand loud music and enjoy parties (last night was hella though, I'm proud of myself~)
I wish I could talk to people
I wish changes and uncertainties didn't upset me so much
I wish I didn't constantly need reassurance
I wish I wasn't so scared of people when they act differently
I wish I wasn't such a burden to people or myself
So this is why it's called a disability

But hopefully a few nights of good sleep and a few days out with friends will fix it~

Kasai and this © Kasodi